I’ve always been a good girl.
Sweet, agreeable, kind. Quiet.
Those are the adjectives used to describe me. I have no problem with using them to describe myself either.
I’m generally a nice person and most of all I want to be a nice person.
That’s the core of who I am.
However, if I’m being honest I have put on layers that hide this truth at many points in my life.
Sometimes I forgot to be nice to others.
Most of the time I forgot to be nice to myself.
I may have said or done the wrong thing and disappointed people I love throughout the years but I’ve definitely let myself down.
I let myself get focused on what I should do or shouldn’t do. I waited too long to go after my dreams because I didn’t think I deserved them.
I’m here to say this:
Even good girls get it wrong sometimes.
There is however one thing that we are great at and that is forgiving.
I forgive myself for all the times I insisted on staying the same.
The good parts of me will always be there even if I’m not the exact same.
I’ll just be same same but different.
The updated version of me.
Have you dealt with guilt about always being the same version of yourself?
Have you forgiven yourself? If not, what’s keeping you from doing it?
I’d love to know your thoughts in the comments.